It's All About Me

I'm absolutely tired of being walked over.

Anything I do, if I make it about me, I'm selfish. However, if I let it be about someone else, I'm selfish, rude, or just an all out bitch.

What the hell. It is apparent to me that the more self-assured a woman is, the more she is considered to be a bitch. Because she can stand on her own two feet and doesn't need a man to protect her. Inside of everyone is a person who wants to be liked and wants to be wanted, or loved, or whatever.

But the outside? The person on the outside is a shell, rock hard and so hard to get into.

Well... Finally, I've reached the point where things are going to be about me. I'm tired of trying to make everyone else happy because all it does it make me unhappy sometimes. I would give someone the shirt off my back because I am that type of person. But in trying to be nice, I feel like it gives people the impression that I will bow down to what they want. WRONG.

There are people I love to death that none of this applies to, but those people have come through for me time and time again. I would not be who I am today if not for them, and for that I am extremely grateful and would give them the shirt off of my back because that truly is who I am. It takes a lot for me to think highly enough of someone to totally let them in. I put walls up to see who's worth being in my life because it protects my sense of self a lot better than just totally be nothing but open about everything.

But for now, I'm just going to let things be about me. I don't give a damn about what someone I don't really know thinks about me. Time to be selfish for awhile....