Moving On

I think it's time to change this a little bit. The last few posts have been a little depressing, especially now that I read them again. While it's good to remember certain memories for the good they may have contained at the time, my life isn't all about the down sides. There's ups and downs to everything and life is one crazy roller coaster ride.

Since the last post, things have been looking up. I got the apology I deserved and while things aren't fully back to normal yet, I am trying to be friends with the guy. I don't know if he truly deserves it or not, I don't know if I believe he wants to be friends or not, but I do like talking to him. I hate that I can't hate them, but holding grudges has never been my thing. I think I finally got closure out of the situation, and closure tends to bring me the ability to appreciate the things I've learned out of a bad situation. (this is where my being over-analytical comes into play)

I'm a lot tougher than I thought I was, I thought losing him would mean the end of my world, but no guy is worth feeling like that. I'm tough in that I can bounce back fairly quickly, just because things seem so wrong one day doesn't mean they won't be fine soon. And everything happens for a reason. I truly believe that people come into your life to teach you something, whether it be the good, the bad, or the ugly.

I am also a better person than most give me credit for. I know for a fact that there quite a few people who wouldn't forgive someone for lying as much as he had, but I do. I believe that people do deserve a second chance. If they blow it the second time, hey that's their call. But it is definitely nice to hear I'm a good person every now and again because I do try to be. And even if I'm wrong sometimes, I will try to fix it. I can be stubborn and bull-headed, but eventually I figure out what I want and what's right. Most of all, I want to change the world by making one person's day that much better. Seeing other people happy makes me happy.

Anyway, for now I'm just appreciating my life for what it is. My friends mean the world to me, as I found out Saturday they can help take me from the shittiest mood to being able to have the kind of laugh that makes you cry. I am in school and finally loving it, I like my classes and I'm prepared to take on the world it seems. I like my jobs, and I want to continue to improve and do the best I can. The tough times seem to bring out the best in me, I guess.

I don't know if any of that makes sense.. Comments?